Frame of mind

There are thousands among thousands of “locks” in our world. Some are physical, others are mental. They control us and sometimes we do not even understand that it is so. One of them though is stronger and more dangerous than all the rest. Speech. The words we constantly say to each other. Once they leave your mouth they cannot be nullified, you cannot take them back. Few people understand how much words can tie someone down and still they continue to use it as a “lock”. It is something living and sometimes it can become so powerful that it can bound ones life.
Let me clarify why am I using the word “lock”. For example when you say that you cannot do something there is a big chance that you will fail. Words can both hurt and cure; they can give and take hope, sadness, love. They can do everything.
But what happens when you break a promise, when your own speech turns against you and you hurt someone? There is a saying “Believe not in words, but in actions”. Yes, words can lie and they can hide something, but what do you think stays longer in ones memory. The confession of love or the blow you received. Words always retain their meaning and after some time they are the only thing that is left. There are some words I would never forget, that I shall always keep in my heart and there are those which I would like never to have heard. Words do not bleed, they do not feel pain, they do not feel love, and they do not need support. Words can be bulletproof, but also they can be the bullet that goes through your heart. Speech is a terrifying thing to posses and when used it can do so much, it can change some ones life.
Life in its self, on the other hand, is something to behold. We constantly change it so it suits us perfectly and continue on with our lies and deceits. We move through our short and uneventful lives in a bubble made by our own mind and desires. Truth be told we are all alone.
You do not know how much I want to change everything, to choose a different path before I did all that I have done. I do not want to change the world, its already too late for that. There is only one thing that should have been different but no one can defeat fate and time.